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Well lately i havnt been weighing myself. I’ve had a few bad past two days but i feel like i make up for it by exercising. I went to the china buffet…yes….the china buffet but i didnt over eat at all. Today is another story. We went to our friends new house and we started the day out by going on their Cobalt boat and riding in the sun on the lake. We stoped in the middle of the lake and ended up going swimming and had a blast. Today though i think i overate when it came down to dinner. I had a steak (delicious), a few red potatoes, ceaser salad (with dressing) and a few pieces of bread. Gosh….i ate soo much bad things..well..the potatoes and the bread. If i was being smart i would have had one or the other. O well.

On a positive note, i am noticing muscle on my legs and arms. I am even noticing my stomach firm up a little bit. I am even noticing my confidence in wearing a bikini go up too.

I dont know if anyone has seen Dr. Oz on the show “Defeating Obesity” but everyone should see atleast one episode. It gives out sooooo many great ideas!!! This sounds sooo simple  but he talks about eating the right things such as healthy foods and eating at home and working out. Basically he gives these people the motivation and means for 6 months to challenge them to loose inches of their waist. He randomly sneaks up and have them weigh theirselves but he usually just goes by the measuring tape. He talks about how muscle weighs more then fat but measuring you waist will show the results more. So..ya. idk. I am kinda out of it right now so i might not make any sense right now.

Well lately i’ve been having panic attack…nothing new BUT the past few times…well yesterday and today..i’ve had panic attacks after EATING. I dont know what to make of it.

Anyway, lately i’ve been doing pretty good on the eating thing. I did slip last night and had margaritas and 2 coronas. Today i went to a mexican restaurant and took half of my burrito i ordered and put half of it away in a TOGO box and ate the other half. I did exercise pretty well today. I did close to 45 mins of my work out video..clompleted the whole workout and then i went and powerwalked 6 miles on a 5.0 incline or plus. chya.

So i weighed myself this morning. I gained a pound. Im not too upset about it really because I have been lifting weights and trying to do some exercises and i think i might be gaining muscle since i found my legs getting firmer, my butt getting a little smaller and firmer, and my arms getting more muscle. So today I went to the lake with my friends. One of my friends whom i havnt seen in a few weeks made a comment that i was loosing weight. Chya.

Then…i got to work. I had a sandwhich (turkey, with cheddar, swiss, and chopped onions) and a side of potato salad. Not much..right? Well…i still think its a lot compared that i usally get a roll sized sandwhich (which is used for the kid’s meals) and a side of potato salad. Anyway..i was in the break room and thinking about what i just ate. I got caught up in thinking about how i was going to loose the weight that i just ate (ie: run it off for a few hours and/or take laxatives). Anyway, I ended up getting a panic attack thinking about what i just ate because i was thinking…and still kind of am…that i will gain 5 lbs (not that much but whatever) and i freaked out. Ya….

Anyway..i need to go take a shower because i cant do anything ( yes…even exercise) without feeling clean from the lake and work. Haha…speaking of which…there was a commercial saying “im clean” for a new show called “The Cleaner”. LOL. ANYWAY…random i know….i need to get off here and take a shower and do some leg exercises, abs, and arms…even butt.

I probably shouldn’t be watching the food network channel at 1:14 AM but…I am and I am getting very hungry. lol. If i do decide to get up, walk downstairs and grab something to eat, i KNOW for a fact that I will be super depressed after I get done eating because I never eat after 7 or so. To be honest, I did have some general soes chicken that my grandpa cooked up for my brother around 11:00 pm BUT i worked it out. As some of you may have read in my previous blogs, I am a firm believer in Kim Kardashian’s workout video: Body Beautiful. Well, there are four chapters you can choose from on the main menu:

• Legs
• Butt
• Arms
• Abs

Last night, I did the Abs, Arms, and Legs. They are probably 10-15 min each . Well tonight I did the arms and the butt section. The butt section got my heart pounding and thats a gooooddd thing I suppose. So..ya. Other then splurging around 11 pm (well..i had maybe 7 small pieces of the chicken) I did remotely splendid on my eating habits today. Tomorrow shall be a better day though. I will get up, maybe have a lean cuisine and swim all day and lay out in the sun with some of my friends and then head to work and I know i will do good there. Our bbq restaurant has some healthy choices. I can get plain pulled chicken (all white) or some beef or a turkey sandwich. I will usually put BBQ sauce on my meat since i have the children’s portion and its super small.

O…total random change of subject but in mid july or early august i will be getting my motorcycle licence. I will be taking a motorcycle class at a community college and then i will just have to go to the dmv and take my picture because i will have a paper saying that i have completed the course. My family is BIG into motorcycles. Right now we have 3 bikes in our garage and my grandpa is trying to sell one of them since its like an early 2000 model with only 7000 miles on it!!!!!! Our two honda goldwings have more mileage on it but grandpa says the bike he is selling is too big for me and i’d be better off on a honda shadow or something like that.

hmm…

 O!!! i forgot to mention…i lost a pound when i weighed in today.

chya.

So today was my day off. I went out, got a pedicure (soooo amazing!!!) and then i went and bought a new pair of shoes to match my dress i was wearing (remember..the size 12 one i could actually fit into!!). Then tonight grandpa and I went downtown and ate at this great restaurant called La Costa. It was really nice. I did have calamari (i know..its fried but i hadnt had it in forever!) and then i had this AMAZING fish with some AMAZING sauce on it. I honestly cant remember the name of the fish because it had some weird name and my grandpa and i never heard of the name before. ANYWAY…i was super full and then we dropped by my brother’s and mine work (my brother was working) and my grandpa and i gave in and he had a slice of lemon pie and i had a hot fudge cake jr (it consists of a half of a slice of cake and some frozen yogurt on top with fudge). Gosh i feel so guilty typeing this..lmao! Anyway…i went out after all this and i came home and exercised to the dvd which i swear by…”Kim Kardashian: Body Beautiful”. I almost bought a new workout dvd from that show “Work Out” on Bravo Tv. Its like $12 (on bravotv.com) but i decided i’d wait because im trying to save up to buy a ps3 for my boyfriend for our 2 year annivarsary and his birthday. hmm soo ya. My body kind of hurts…kind of feels bloated…and kind of tired BUT it was amazing feeling the pain leave my body when exercising. Ok…the feeling was not amazing BUT its nice to know my body is getting stronger by the workouts i do. I am kind of afraid to weigh myself tomorrow just because i ate the hotfudge cake and the calamari. Anyway..i will most likely weigh myself and i am sure you guys will know about the results.

For everybody else, I hope everybody is doing great and loosing their weight!! Good luck!! =]

Well today I do not work which is great!!! I have/had things planned but its starting to get lake into the day..like 1 o clock late lol…and i might not have time to do everything i have planned. Two things which I really want to do is get a pedicure, have a wheat grass shot, get on treadmill, and work out to Kim Kardashian. lol. Has anyone tried a wheat grass shot?? I tried it for the first day last week and it was actually pretty good. I saw Kimora Lee Simmons on her tv show trying it with her little girls and i was like..”if a 5 year old can try it, then i can try it”. So I went and bought a shot of the wheat grass and they gave me a little cup of pineapple juice to chase it down with. Funny thing is, when I took that shot, an army recruiter happened to be around (cute may i add) and was joking with me that i was taking jello shots in the middle of the mall. lol. Well i have gone down 3 lbs since I last talked. Pretty sure its all water weight but hey! whatever works. lol. Well im about to get off here and rip into a lean cusine.

For everybody that has given me inspiring words, thank you!!! I wish everybody the best of luck!

Why hello! My name is Ashley and I think I am overweight. I used to live in Orange County, California and I attended weight watchers when I was like 13. I wasnt overweight or obese but I wanted to be super thin and I wasnt super thin. I moved to Tennessee and totally let myself go! There is such a difference between California and the south. In California you are not normal if you are not skinny. In the south, the men LOVE the curves. They love a little something to grab onto. Well, I have been going to college for about 3 years at a university and I have joined a sorority. I have a best friend in my sorority and she lost like 30 pounds in 3 months. The girls I hang out with dont eat really and I think if they can loose weight, then I can!! It seems like everybody I know is loosing weight and basically I feel the need to keep up with the Jones and loose weight as well. I weighed myself a long time ago (a year or so ago) and I was in the 180’s. I just started to eat less…maybe too less…and randomly exercise and I went down to 171 (from a 177, since i weighed myself recently) in a week’s period. I think thats normal. My boyfriend actually thinks I may have signs of anorexia in the beginning stages. Who knows. I do eat….I have to eat. BUT..if I do eat it is either salads (useing lemon juice as my dressing) and then maybe having a side of potato salad and a few bites of chicken or beef (since i work at a BBQ restaurant) for dinner. I usually sleep through breakfast because i sleep in. Basically, I think this website will encourage me to help loose the weight that I WANT…NEED to loose. I have been on every diet known to man. I have done the whole atkins diet(ever since i could remember), useing laxatives as purging, barely eating, useing diet pills, trying to exercise…you name it. As far as i am concerned, this is going to be the time when I actually loose the weight. I WILL see resaults. I do have an achievement which I noticed this week. I went shopping and I usually fit into XL shirts and size 14 pants or dresses. WELL…i walked into an Ann Taylor shirt, found a size L shirt…tried it on and it was kinda loose on me. THEN i walked into New York and Co and picked out a size 12 and 14 dress and the size 14 was actually too big. I ended up picking the size 12. Chya.